7-6-15) Why ?



Why do you tell me lies ?.

you tell me that you


you tell me

that you know,

you even tell me you care.

Problem is


don’t see you there

or here .

My decision to decide, I made

looking into my own

eye’s ,

a reflection in

the mirror ,

a reflection without


it come’s to no


that the existence come’s

from within.

a place where there is no sin.

for my own life

now begins.


11-19-14) “wintry cry”

“Wintry Cry”


sing me a


sing me a lullaby,

pierce my heart with your deadly


sing me to sleep in the dead of

winter ,

i want your words to feel like a


open my eyes like wintry  tears of snow

flake glitter.


6-21-11) Why This Pain

“Why This Pain”

Why do I feel this way .

Why this pain

Why do I shed these tears .

What do I fear, when your forgiving

Love is near

Why this pain when I close

My eyes

A tear  streaming down my cheek like

Razor-sharp glass.

I just want to wipe out the


Alcohol in my hand , makes  me feel like I can.

As   my eyes go crazy,  jerky,  hazy .

Why this pain

I need another drink, so I can sit here

and write and think.

3-14-11) Empty Pain

“Empty pain”


look into my eyes, see the pain

you caused ?.

My soul an empty wasteland without life.

Darkness falls, I feel nothing, like a rose that could not shed its thorns.

I touch it, feel its sorrow pricking me,

hmmmmm, did I feel that?!

I ask so many times and yet you  say nothing.

do I deserve no answers ?, is this a test of faith ?

one should wonder.

so i walk down a new path holding the rose of the dead,

blood dripping from my finger tips from

where the thorns had stuck.

and so I move one,  I alone will decide  my own fate,  my destiny and my eternity.

so if this displeases you , then show your self.

Deserve it, earn it,  or say nothing.

I am the key,  you are the lock.

so tell me,

what are you going to do ?.

3-14-11) If a Rose Could Talk

“If a Rose Could Talk”

If a rose could talk what would it say ?

will you love me , will you stay ?

what do I have to do to be the rose in your heart ?

What do I have to give to make your

bloom this way ?

what can I say to make to make your hurt go

away ?

when you touch me my soul aches with

renewal of life a new day.

your sorrow saddens me like the dew on my leaves like tears.

pick me to lead you the way

let me touch your face as the moon light sings you too sleep

let my roots embrace you with

passion and longing,

let my will bring back a long forgotten memory

to a time of truth, a time of power, too a time when

we were one with destiny and a path of strength.

If a rose could talk what would it say ?

will you love me?, will you stay ?.